Starting about 8 months ago, we started going to the OBGYN, for appointments to check on our baby's health. Appointments that I would find myself getting anxious and excited at each time. Excited at the prospect of hearing the baby's heartbeat or seeing the squirming little bean flash across a screen for a few seconds.. holding back tears, smiling uncontrollably. Not fully understanding the process, not being able to grasp this miracle that we had created. Anxious to know the heartbeat was healthy and everything was going along as it should.. Because really, this whole growing a baby malarkey is pretty much out of your hands.. you can eat healthily, cut out the alcohol, exercise, make sure your not putting anything in your body that could harm your baby, but really, you have very little say. I still find it hard to wrap my head around the fact that I have managed to grow this baby, that I have carried this baby for 9 months, that my body is capable to cater to the needs of this new life.. I have loved every minute, I have loathed some minutes, but I would never change anything. I would put up with the back pain, the kicks in the ribs, the gas. I have been amazed by the shear revelation that your body is a vessel and you will give in to what it needs.
Our 38 week appointment was this morning.. Every appointment MFJ has come with me, and I wouldn't have it any other way, just seeing his face light up in a way nothing else can make it light when he hears the heart beat. I love these times. The appointments are nearing the end, and baby will be here soon, and I cannot wait for the baby to replace the noise of the heartbeat to spread a smile so full of love over his face.
The appointment this morning we were both a little more excited about, as the Doc was checking my cervix.. MFJ was adamant that I would be a little dilated, and a little effaced, I thought he was going to jump out of his chair when the doctor stated quite matter-of-factly that I was '2cm dilated and 70% effaced', I'm pretty sure I saw him punch the air as well!
Sitting here drinking raspberry leaf tea, apparently it's supposed to help induce labour! But, who knows! If baby wants to stay in there and get healthier, and fatter, I'm good with that, but, if baby wants to come out and meet us, I am so ready for that too...
We are so excited for this next chapter in our lives.
This is so beautiful Katie! I am so excited for you both too! Much love x x x
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