How?

How to decipher what is right or wrong.. how to choose the right thing to do. I don't think you can. I don't think that there is always a right answer, and I especially think that whatever decision you make when it comes to your children, there is always someone that will think you made the wrong choice.

How do you know if your child is crying because you did, or didn't do something? How do you shake the feelings that you were inadequate? I don't know how I can please the people that matter, let alone myself, and be happy with my decisions. I always consider, and care, and weigh out what is happening, but I am new at this job, and I know some things are not going to be ideal.

How is it that I am in knots when I know I put my child first, that I am upset and angry at a circumstance that happened, and for all intents and purposes, was successful. But, can be said that my actions negatively impacted my child, or is it coincidence that my child cry's after a day of doing things that other people may say they shouldn't have done.. who is to know. All I know, is that I will always put my son first, and try my best to do the best all the time, for my son and my family.